About
I Am Mattie
I live by a deeper pulse — one that keeps calling me further inward.
Even after the breakthroughs, the joy, the moments of genuine peace — there's always more. Another layer. A truth not yet spoken. A self not yet fully arrived at. I've stopped expecting that to change. Now I trust it.
If you've felt that too — if something in you knows there's still more to become — then you're already in the work of what I offer.
My path to this work wasn't linear. It moved through burnout, through years of body-based healing work, through Human Design and the Variables, through Gene Keys — each leap taken before I fully knew where it would land. That's still how it works. I follow what opens. I trust what I've lived. And I work from the inside of everything I've moved through — not from the outside looking in.
I've been through the burn of pushing past what was mine to carry. I've rebuilt from emotional collapse. I've learned to trust my own timing — even when, especially when, it doesn't match the pace I think I should be moving at.
“What I watch happen — almost every time — is this: someone arrives carrying the weight of everything they know about themselves, and somewhere in the session, they put it down. Not because we solved it. Because something underneath it finally got seen.” — Mattie
I Am a Manifestor
I'm an Emotional Manifestor — designed to initiate, disrupt, and catalyse. My energy arrives in bursts, and when it arrives, it arrives fully — and when it completes, it withdraws just as cleanly.
My 3/5 profile means I've lived what I teach. Not studied it from a distance — lived it, tested it, broken it apart and rebuilt it. And while I'm doing that, others watch and take what's useful to them.
I'm a Triple Split — three distinct streams of energy running simultaneously, integrating through movement, conversation, and the auras of others. I require space, rest, and regular recalibration. The rest is built into the design — it's how the energy renews itself. The depth of what I bring is directly proportional to how well I honour that.
I carry the Right Angle Cross of Consciousness — illumination through inquiry, experience, and emotional depth. A cross I came in carrying. The thread I'm here to follow.
And then there's my astrology: Pisces Sun, Virgo Moon, Gemini Rising. The mystic, the discerner, and the bridge-builder — all three present in every session.
Chiron sits right on my Ascendant — in Gemini, the sign of voice and communication. The wound that became the gift. The more I speak, especially live, the more clearly I understand why.
Me and My
Gene
Keys
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Doubt is my fuel. That hasn’t always been easy to say.
It still arrives — the questioning, the pressure, the moments where certainty feels just out of reach. I've stopped fighting it. I follow it into inquiry instead. And inquiry, when I trust it enough to stay, always moves toward something true.
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Confusion still arrives. The fog, the fragmented thoughts, the feeling that something important is forming but won't yet take shape. I've stopped trying to force it into clarity. I've learned to let the fragments gather. When they do, something illuminates — not gradually, but all at once.
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Impatience still moves through me. The feeling that time is slipping, that I should be further along, that the rhythm of my life doesn't match the pace I think it should. I've learned not to act from that feeling. I've learned to feel it fully and then wait. What's mine arrives in its own time.
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There’s a fire in me that’s always wanted more — more life, more emotion, more depth. That hunger hasn't gone anywhere. Sometimes it's still frantic. Sometimes it's full of grief. And sometimes it moves me exactly where I need to go.
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Shock still follows me. I still trigger people simply by being myself — by moving at my own pace, speaking what's true, disrupting what's comfortable simply by being present. I've made peace with that. The ones who are meant to be in my field aren't destabilised by it. They're catalysed.
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The pull to absorb what isn’t mine still arrives.I can feel the unspoken tension in a room — I always could — and the old pattern still stirs sometimes. The difference now is I can feel it without becoming it. I name it to myself. I let it pass. I stay in my own frequency.
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There's a delight in me that needs new elements — new ideas, new experiences, new ways of seeing what I thought I already understood. Not restlessness. More like a genuine open-heartedness to being changed by what I encounter. I've learned to trust that instinct. When I let something new in and follow where it leads, something that wasn't possible before becomes possible. That's still how I grow. That's still how the work deepens.
My Channels: How My Energy Moves
64–47 | Channel of Abstraction
The fog still descends sometimes — thoughts swirling, meanings collapsing, something important forming just out of reach. I used to fight it. Now I've learned to trust it. The fog is the process. What's forming in it is already on its way.
25–51 | Channel of Initiation
My life is a series of unexpected awakenings — often uncomfortable, always transformative. This energy doesn't whisper — it roars. I've learned to let it move through me cleanly rather than managing it into something quieter than it actually is.
35–36 | Channel of Transitoriness
The emotional waves still catch me sometimes — building to peaks that feel like certainty, dropping to valleys that feel like despair. Neither is the truth. Both are part of the arc. I've learned to ride them without being ruled by them, and to wait until the wave completes before I act from what I feel.
Together, these frequencies have shaped someone who follows what's alive — even into the fog, even into the leap, even when I don't know where it lands.
What You’ll Experience in My Space
To be in my space is to feel something shift. Not always comfortably — sometimes the first thing that moves is what was keeping you stuck.
You'll experience moments of intensity, clarity, and honesty that catches you off guard. You may feel disrupted before you feel settled. The patterns I can see from the outside often surprise people — not because they're unexpected, but because they've been too close to see.
What follows the disruption is exploration — and often, something that feels like relief. Together we move into what's opened, following threads, sitting with what doesn't yet resolve, allowing meaning to emerge at the pace it actually arrives.
You'll feel invited into your own timing, your own clarity, your own truth — not because I hand those things to you, but because the space we create together makes them accessible in a way they haven't been before.
This is initiation — and then exploration. It's for the ones who are ready to meet themselves beyond the story they've been telling about themselves.
I’m Not For Everyone
This work has a particular kind of person it's for.
Someone self-responsible and self-led. Someone who's done enough inner work to know the difference between wanting to be fixed and wanting to understand. Someone who can be disrupted by what they see in themselves — and stay with it rather than deflecting.
I don't offer formulas or promises. I offer presence, and the kind of exploration that makes your own clarity accessible in a way it hasn't been before.
One thing worth naming: I don't offer introductory Human Design readings. If you're new to the system, there are wonderful practitioners who can give you that foundation — and once you have it, this is where the deeper work begins.
If that's you — if something in you recognises that description — the door is already open.
