About
I am Mattie
I live by a deeper pulse, one that keeps calling me further inward. Even after the breakthroughs, the joy and the moments of real peace, there's always another layer, a truth not yet spoken. I've stopped expecting that to change, and now I trust it.
My path here began with a burnout. I'd been pushing past what was mine to carry for a long time, and the burnout turned me toward energy work and the body. For more than ten years I worked with people as a CranioSacral Therapist, Visceral Massage Therapist and Reiki Master. In the end I closed that practice on purpose, because most people came to me for relief from a symptom, and what lights me up is the root.
The question underneath has stayed the same through every tool I've picked up: why is this pattern here, and what wants to be seen? Human Design, the Variables, which I studied with Vaness Henry, and the Gene Keys gave me a map for asking it. Hypnosis gave me a way to ask it where awareness doesn't reach. And the years of bodywork are still with me in how I sense where someone is.
I'm still in this work myself. I've rebuilt from emotional collapse, and I'm still learning to trust my own timing, even when, especially when, it doesn't match the pace I think I should be moving at.
I am a Manifestor
I'm an Emotional Manifestor, designed to initiate, disrupt and catalyse. My energy arrives in bursts, and when it arrives it arrives fully, and when something completes it withdraws just as cleanly.
My 3/5 profile means I live what I teach first. I test it, break it apart and rebuild it, and while I'm doing that, others watch and take what's useful to them.
I'm a Triple Split, with three streams of energy that integrate through movement, conversation and the auras of others. I need space, rest and regular recalibration. Rest is how this design renews itself, and the depth of what I bring depends on how well I honour that.
I carry the Right Angle Cross of Consciousness: illumination through inquiry, experience and emotional depth. It's the thread I came here to follow.
And then there's my astrology: Pisces Sun, Virgo Moon, Gemini Rising. The mystic, the discerner and the bridge-builder are all in the room in every session.
Chiron sits right on my Ascendant, in Gemini, the sign of voice and communication. The wound around my voice is still there, and so is the gift in it.
The more I speak, especially live, the more clearly I understand why.
Me and My
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Keys
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Doubt is my fuel, and that hasn't always been easy to say. It still arrives, with its questioning and its pressure and the moments where certainty feels just out of reach. I follow it with curiosity into inquiry, and inquiry, when I trust it enough to stay, moves toward something true.
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Confusion still arrives: the fog, the fragmented thoughts, the feeling that something important is forming and won't yet take shape. I've learned to let the fragments gather in their own time, and when they do, something illuminates all at once.
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Impatience still moves through me, with the feeling that time is slipping and that I should be further along than I am. I've learned to feel it fully and then wait. What's mine arrives in its own time.
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There's a fire in me that still wants more: more life, more emotion, more depth. That hunger hasn't gone anywhere. Sometimes it's frantic, sometimes it's full of grief, and sometimes it moves me exactly where I need to go.
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Shock still follows me. I trigger people simply by being myself, by moving at my own pace and saying what's true. I've made peace with that. The people meant to be close to me feel it as a wake-up call, and something in them starts to move.
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The pull to absorb what isn't mine still arrives. I've always been able to feel the unspoken tension in a room, and the old pattern still stirs sometimes. These days I'm better at feeling it without becoming it. I name it to myself, let it pass, and stay in my own frequency.
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There's a delight in me that needs new elements: new ideas, new experiences, new ways of seeing what I thought I already understood. It's an open-heartedness to being changed by what I meet. When I let something new in and follow where it leads, something becomes possible that wasn't possible before. Hypnosis was one of those new elements. That's still how I grow, and how the work deepens.
My Channels: How My Energy Moves
64–47 | Channel of Abstraction
The fog still descends sometimes, with thoughts swirling, meanings collapsing and something important forming just out of reach. I used to fight it, and now I trust it. The fog is the process, and what's forming in it is already on its way.
25–51 | Channel of Initiation
My life is a series of unexpected awakenings, often uncomfortable and always transformative. This energy roars, and I've learned to let it move through me cleanly instead of managing it into something quieter than it is.
35–36 | Channel of Transitoriness
The emotional waves still catch me sometimes, building to peaks that feel like certainty and dropping to valleys that feel like despair. The lows are still really uncomfortable, but I've noticed they pass faster and faster, especially when I'm able to surrender to them. Neither is the truth, and both are part of the arc. I've learned to ride them without being ruled by them, and to wait until the wave completes before I act on what I feel.
Together, these frequencies have shaped someone who follows what's alive — even into the fog, even into the leap, even when she doesn't know where it lands.
What you’ll experience in my space
To be in my space is to be met. I see what's in front of me and I say it, warmly and plainly, and sometimes the first thing to move is whatever has been keeping you stuck.
The patterns I notice from the outside can surprise you, usually because they've been too close for you to see. You might feel stirred before you feel settled. And then there's often something like relief, as we follow what has opened and let meaning arrive at its own pace.
I work in two ways. Sometimes we explore your Human Design and Gene Keys together, live. Sometimes we go underneath through hypnosis, where you stay aware and in dialogue with me the whole way through.
Either way, your clarity is yours. I offer what I see as a truth from my own lived experience, and you decide what's true for you.
Who I love working with
The people I work with are self-led. They've lived with their design long enough to know their patterns by name, and they're curious about what's still underneath. When something in them gets stirred, they stay with it, because understanding it matters more to them than making it go away.
My unconscious 5th line means people sometimes meet me as the answer before we've even begun. What I love most is the moment someone finds her own answer: guided, yes, but her own.
What I bring is presence, and the kind of exploration that makes your own clarity reachable.
The Shift and the Leap meet you where Human Design is already a language you live in. If you're just starting out with it, a foundational reading with a practitioner who offers them gives you that ground first. The Frequency Underneath welcomes you whether you know your design well or hardly at all.
Where to begin
The Frequency Shift
One 90-minute session of live exploration through your Human Design and Gene Keys
The Frequency Underneath
Hypnosis for the pattern you can see clearly and still can't move, in one session or three
The Frequency Leap
Three months that bring both ways of working together